Was it just illusions? Recently, it feels like a part of me was raging it's way out. I keep on haggling with myself: Is it really a right decision to change? From a irascible person to someone who can't stop giving in. It's been a year. Everyday i'm living under rules, rules set by people who doesn't even matter. I followed through every single of them, giving in all and whenever i could, swallowing anger down my throat and even keeping words that i know could have defend myself. I may be inadequate to be your friend, but don't think that this is a chance to showcase how proud you are. Because even when it comes to looking down on me, only i have the right to think this way. Maybe afterall, being a temperamental person is much more easier than being the king and queen's dog.
Let's just put it this way, perhaps people don't see how much incandescence is hidden inside a quiet girl, and they assume this last forever when they don't see it. Whatsoever, it doesn't really matter to me who & what you are thinking. Suck it.
Was it just illusions? Recently, it feels like a part of me was raging it's way out. I keep on haggling with myself: Is it really a right decision to change? From a irascible person to someone who can't stop giving in. It's been a year. Everyday i'm living under rules, rules set by people who doesn't even matter. I followed through every single of them, giving in all and whenever i could, swallowing anger down my throat and even keeping words that i know could have defend myself. I may be inadequate to be your friend, but don't think that this is a chance to showcase how proud you are. Because even when it comes to looking down on me, only i have the right to think this way. Maybe afterall, being a temperamental person is much more easier than being the king and queen's dog.
Let's just put it this way, perhaps people don't see how much incandescence is hidden inside a quiet girl, and they assume this last forever when they don't see it. Whatsoever, it doesn't really matter to me who & what you are thinking. Suck it.
βTo put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.β
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. I am sure though, that what they think of me, what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who won't get angry no matter what. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
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georgia, 28 october, singaporean