Sometimes how i wish feelings have got a on-off button. When i am happy, i turn it on. When i am about to feel depressed, red light should start spinning, hinting me that it is time to turn that button off for a moment.

I don't get how some people really thinks. I don't get how i feel from time to time too. At one moment, you could feel so enthusiastic about something or someone, and that at the very next day everything is gone in the blink of an eye. How irritating is this, to feel good and bad at one go.

People always tell me good and bad things comes in a package. When your luck is charged, everything you'd once hoped for comes at one go, even though you might have gotten over it. And then when your luck is down, everything you had possess goes at one go too. Sad things always hurt people some way, and that it comes too often every time. It's hard to persuade yourself to start waiting for the good stuffs again; it might be tomorrow, but who knows if it takes another good 10 years. How bad would you feel waiting?

When others don't feel like talking to you, and on the hand doesn't want to hurt you, they give you excuses that you simply know they are excuses, but can do nothing about it. And during those times when you are feeling sentimental and starts thinking about it, you can get so direct and heated up that you actually approached them for the truth. At the end of the day, they still gives the old excuses, you expect for it, but you still ain't finding yourself getting the rightful answer, you still have to go through the same kind of upset process. Is this what they call Serve yourself right?

Many told me my mind is like a drawn-up map, and that my face is like the loudspeaker. Whatever that comes up on my mind are troubles and emotions I've build it in myself, and whatever that's written on my face blast out what i am feeling and thinking. When i am laughing so hard, you know i am genuinely happy. But when i am feeling down or angry, even if i hung the biggest smile walking around, you would have know that something is wrong, again. So maybe after going a whole big round, my feelings' ain't that hard to be guessed.

No matter how hard some feelings are to be dealt with, everyone would have their way of getting rid of it. Some people drink their unhappiness away, Some people would scream and shout in a wide empty field, Some people bang their head on the wall and cope all day long in their room till some right senses hit on them randomly, and Some people even visit the old good memories to hurt themselves all over again as they believe this helps them in forgetting everything easier afterwards. 

For me, i love indulging myself in watching all sorts of dramas and movies, running various movie marathons and searching online for really really dramatic dramas. I love drowning myself in other people's stories, may it be fictional or non-fictional. Sitting in a good vintage cafe reading a classic book while listening to indie musics is another way of calming down myself. Well sometimes its hard finding a good cafe to rest in, but if you really tried experiencing them, you'll probably get a endless list of resting spots. In certain occasions, running and swimming under the sun could help too, in some way. The last step for me to end all sadness for the day was to cry all i want without feeling afraid to show it out, and then allowing myself to fall asleep with zero interruptions. I would wake up the next day feeling no sadness on the inside, wondering what could have made me feel so upset the previous day. 

Perhaps you have had different ways of dealing with your feelings, and you need not agree on mine. Just keep it on mind that good and bad things ends one day, and there's actually nothing for you to look too  forward to or fear. Despite giving conclusion like this, i know that it doesn't work on me very well all the times. I still look forward to things i couldn't have, and i would still be fearful of losing things that i did not have. But anyway, the sun still rise after it sets, and there will still be rainbow after the rain; Feelings don't control humans, we control them. :)

Sometimes how i wish feelings have got a on-off button. When i am happy, i turn it on. When i am about to feel depressed, red light should start spinning, hinting me that it is time to turn that button off for a moment.

I don't get how some people really thinks. I don't get how i feel from time to time too. At one moment, you could feel so enthusiastic about something or someone, and that at the very next day everything is gone in the blink of an eye. How irritating is this, to feel good and bad at one go.

People always tell me good and bad things comes in a package. When your luck is charged, everything you'd once hoped for comes at one go, even though you might have gotten over it. And then when your luck is down, everything you had possess goes at one go too. Sad things always hurt people some way, and that it comes too often every time. It's hard to persuade yourself to start waiting for the good stuffs again; it might be tomorrow, but who knows if it takes another good 10 years. How bad would you feel waiting?

When others don't feel like talking to you, and on the hand doesn't want to hurt you, they give you excuses that you simply know they are excuses, but can do nothing about it. And during those times when you are feeling sentimental and starts thinking about it, you can get so direct and heated up that you actually approached them for the truth. At the end of the day, they still gives the old excuses, you expect for it, but you still ain't finding yourself getting the rightful answer, you still have to go through the same kind of upset process. Is this what they call Serve yourself right?

Many told me my mind is like a drawn-up map, and that my face is like the loudspeaker. Whatever that comes up on my mind are troubles and emotions I've build it in myself, and whatever that's written on my face blast out what i am feeling and thinking. When i am laughing so hard, you know i am genuinely happy. But when i am feeling down or angry, even if i hung the biggest smile walking around, you would have know that something is wrong, again. So maybe after going a whole big round, my feelings' ain't that hard to be guessed.

No matter how hard some feelings are to be dealt with, everyone would have their way of getting rid of it. Some people drink their unhappiness away, Some people would scream and shout in a wide empty field, Some people bang their head on the wall and cope all day long in their room till some right senses hit on them randomly, and Some people even visit the old good memories to hurt themselves all over again as they believe this helps them in forgetting everything easier afterwards. 

For me, i love indulging myself in watching all sorts of dramas and movies, running various movie marathons and searching online for really really dramatic dramas. I love drowning myself in other people's stories, may it be fictional or non-fictional. Sitting in a good vintage cafe reading a classic book while listening to indie musics is another way of calming down myself. Well sometimes its hard finding a good cafe to rest in, but if you really tried experiencing them, you'll probably get a endless list of resting spots. In certain occasions, running and swimming under the sun could help too, in some way. The last step for me to end all sadness for the day was to cry all i want without feeling afraid to show it out, and then allowing myself to fall asleep with zero interruptions. I would wake up the next day feeling no sadness on the inside, wondering what could have made me feel so upset the previous day. 

Perhaps you have had different ways of dealing with your feelings, and you need not agree on mine. Just keep it on mind that good and bad things ends one day, and there's actually nothing for you to look too  forward to or fear. Despite giving conclusion like this, i know that it doesn't work on me very well all the times. I still look forward to things i couldn't have, and i would still be fearful of losing things that i did not have. But anyway, the sun still rise after it sets, and there will still be rainbow after the rain; Feelings don't control humans, we control them. :)