March has come by so fast when i just got adapted to the holidays. The closing date for enrolment into poly school was just a few days ago, and now it feels like school is starting soon in days time. One more month. Taking up hotel and hospitality management was a shocking decision, especially when i chose to give up on psychology. Perhaps this is more of a sudden attack on feelings about what i really want to go for, but many had told me not to be regretful of what i`ve chosen for myself. Thinking on the spot, im some what worried too. Hearing how different people had commented on my decision somehow helps a little as many had volunteered to help with a little bit of research for me and assuring me that i`ve made the right choice. Im looking forward to the start of school, with much mixed feelings and the same time. I would say its more of a being scare that i will not be able to catch up with the rest, as brushed by my normal way of carelessness everywhere. Making new friends is a must, and i hope i could really communicate well enough. And speaking from here, i`ve started thinking how my self-introduction will be like, and sometimes overthinkings really made me laughed so hard at the silly things i`ve thought of. Well, what`s meant to be will meant to be, guess i just don`t have to worry too much about it now.
Recently i have been thinking alot about myself, and how im gonna be like in the near future. Sometimes its kind of stress when i can do nothing about my fear, and its real irritating that i just cant stop thinking about it when i couldn`t fall asleep in the night. Words from many of my friends kept on flashing through my sea of thoughts, and thinking of them, i think im really lucky to have them with me. And whats more greater is that i have this friend who`s really encouraging and positive about me, no matter what i`ve did to raise angriness. Lets just call that friend of mine to be x. Few days ago i have been kinda negative about a feeling named loneliness, and that makes me real sad for quite a time. And i continued to realise that certain times im really just a weird person who does different things from the rest. By chance, i came across talking to x about something call fear. Unexpectedly, x started telling me a lot and a lot of life stories and ways of overcoming myself, and i really love stories. Just by reading through the words of encouragement makes me feel that im indeed over-estimating my troubles. But anyway, that was the first time someone had spoken so much to me when i had just mentioned a simple word 'scared'. Its the first time having someone teaching me to not to think that i can do it, but rather i will try my best. I`ve always not been putting myself too much into certain things that i know will disappoint me in the end, and hence not feeling too bad in when things come to an end too. I thought that was wrong, but now indeed its the only way to not turn back and accept some wrong things by mistakes all again. I guess i know who are the friends that will really stay with me and who will just be another disappointment, and im aware too of who`s really gonna be by my side when i needed help. And all that i could have say is that i do have amazing friends, though it might not be as much as you, im grateful for them all already.
March has come by so fast when i just got adapted to the holidays. The closing date for enrolment into poly school was just a few days ago, and now it feels like school is starting soon in days time. One more month. Taking up hotel and hospitality management was a shocking decision, especially when i chose to give up on psychology. Perhaps this is more of a sudden attack on feelings about what i really want to go for, but many had told me not to be regretful of what i`ve chosen for myself. Thinking on the spot, im some what worried too. Hearing how different people had commented on my decision somehow helps a little as many had volunteered to help with a little bit of research for me and assuring me that i`ve made the right choice. Im looking forward to the start of school, with much mixed feelings and the same time. I would say its more of a being scare that i will not be able to catch up with the rest, as brushed by my normal way of carelessness everywhere. Making new friends is a must, and i hope i could really communicate well enough. And speaking from here, i`ve started thinking how my self-introduction will be like, and sometimes overthinkings really made me laughed so hard at the silly things i`ve thought of. Well, what`s meant to be will meant to be, guess i just don`t have to worry too much about it now.
Recently i have been thinking alot about myself, and how im gonna be like in the near future. Sometimes its kind of stress when i can do nothing about my fear, and its real irritating that i just cant stop thinking about it when i couldn`t fall asleep in the night. Words from many of my friends kept on flashing through my sea of thoughts, and thinking of them, i think im really lucky to have them with me. And whats more greater is that i have this friend who`s really encouraging and positive about me, no matter what i`ve did to raise angriness. Lets just call that friend of mine to be x. Few days ago i have been kinda negative about a feeling named loneliness, and that makes me real sad for quite a time. And i continued to realise that certain times im really just a weird person who does different things from the rest. By chance, i came across talking to x about something call fear. Unexpectedly, x started telling me a lot and a lot of life stories and ways of overcoming myself, and i really love stories. Just by reading through the words of encouragement makes me feel that im indeed over-estimating my troubles. But anyway, that was the first time someone had spoken so much to me when i had just mentioned a simple word 'scared'. Its the first time having someone teaching me to not to think that i can do it, but rather i will try my best. I`ve always not been putting myself too much into certain things that i know will disappoint me in the end, and hence not feeling too bad in when things come to an end too. I thought that was wrong, but now indeed its the only way to not turn back and accept some wrong things by mistakes all again. I guess i know who are the friends that will really stay with me and who will just be another disappointment, and im aware too of who`s really gonna be by my side when i needed help. And all that i could have say is that i do have amazing friends, though it might not be as much as you, im grateful for them all already.
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. I am sure though, that what they think of me, what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who won't get angry no matter what. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
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